So now that we’ve officially called off the goalie…anxiety is in full swing!
One of my biggest fears about actually starting to try to get pregnant is not being able to. The blogosphere seems to be Mommies, and Those Who Want to Be…and admittedly, the infertility aspect scares me to death.
I was diagnosed at 16 with endometriosis, and have had two surgeries to take down adhesions. As optimistic as I usually am, I still hear that voice in the back of my head that says, Who says you can even get pregnant? Because you’ve had doctors say that its going to be tough! And while I always worry that I’ll end up wanting to quit school and not finish my graduate work once I have a baby, it scares me even more to think about getting done with school and not being able to have kids.
My apologies to those struggling with infertility, because my intent is not to be hurtful. I just worry! And although I won’t worry about this once I see two lines, I will move onto worrying about a baby. And when I’m handed my newborn, I’ll start a whole new set of worries… *sigh*
How ironic is it that getting pregnant, being pregnant, becoming a Mom, are some of the the BIGGEST worry times of your life…but the happy pills you can take are not recommended for pregnancy?!?! lol
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Bug's Mom
I was terrified that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant. I have a history of ovarian cyts and both DH and I just had hit what I’d read was an age of decreased fertility for both of us (me,over 28, him, over 40),and I’d been taking birth control for about 10 years . We were pregnant in 6 weeks after I stopped taking the pill. In all likelihood, your body will do exactly what it was designed to do. Relax and enjoy it.
tabitha
see…you are a mother already with all that worry
i think it’s just natures way of preparing us for motherhood
that said
stop worrying
seriously
’cause that only compounds the problem
and i have learned over and over and over again that worry in no way wards off what you are worrying about
though i used to think it might
i worried myself dizzy when it took us a year to concieve our second child (doing everything right and peeing on every stick they made)
my midwife finally told me to get some wine coolers and go fool around with my husband in the back seat of the car
i don’t really like wine coolers
or cramped back seats
but…it was good advice
if i could have taken it
B
Haha – that IS ironic
Also ironic is when pregnancy leaves you with a postpartum need for the happy pills. I’m working on weaning off mine now that we’re approaching her first birthday :/
Lil' Woman
I’m not ready for baby making yet but after reading so many infertility blogs, I’d be lying to say that it doesn’t scare me a bit.
Teresa
I had been on the pill for over 10 years, had a LEEP procedure done in the past and we had been trying for a few months. So we went to the doctor. I was diagnosed with PCOS. I ended up going through all sorts of tests then switched to an infertility doctor. Once we were there, it felt like an incredible weight had been lifted off our shoulders. We were meant to be there!! We ended up getting pregnant our first month with the infertility doctor and going through weekly ultrasounds (sometimes two times a week) to monitor things. We ultimately decided that we were where we needed to be and that made all of the difference.
In the end, we had been trying for almost a year.
Even now, when we’re thinking about trying for our second child, we need to remember to take things in stride. Go where you’re comfortable, try not to sweat the small stuff and it’s OK if you need to go to an infertility doctor (we also found I wasn’t ovulating every month).
My little sister, who is NOT religious at all but knows I am, said, “God is waiting for the perfect little soul for you guys! Be patient, he’s looking!!”
Good luck!!
Whitney
You’re certainly not the only one with those worries! You should try not to worry unless it starts taking a long time, and then approach it with your doctor. Sometimes, it’s easy to make your family, other times it’s not, but either way you’ll get there eventually.
Sit back, relax, and enjoy whatever ride you have to get to being a Mommy! It will make whatever ride you take easier, if even just a little.
Natalie
Just try to take a deep breath and not get yourself too worried yet. It could take you some time, or maybe it won’t. But worrying never helped. Of course as easy as that is to type, it is also the first thought the enters every woman’s mind when she gives up that pill. You’re so right that the worries just keep on building with each new thing. Keep in mind, your just experiencing the 2WW anxiety. So you’re probably worrying about the situation both ways: “What if I can’t get pregnant?”. and “What if I am pregnant? Am I ready for this?”. It is the ultimate dichotomy.